Stand Tall

Philippians 1:6 (NLV)

“I am sure that God who began the good work in you will keep on working in you until the day Jesus Christ comes again.”

Funny story, as you date, obviously you ask when their birthday is or at least it comes up at some point.  So of course when my hubby and I were dating he told me his birthday was September 2nd. Huh! Kind of funny because the day that Jesus saved me from trying to take my life was September 2nd.  Isn’t that crazy? Actually it’s super God. He works like that. 

I celebrated 19 years this year.  As I reflect on it, I realize all the amazing and beautiful things I would’ve missed out on but it’s so much more than that. I step back and see the healing that’s taken place.  I have a tendency to constantly look at the work that still needs to be done instead of celebrating the pieces that were literally laying in shambles and now are whole. Hitting the end is real. I felt it, I lived it, I tried it, and thankfully I didn’t succeed. There’s no denying the fact that the depths of pain we can feel can bring us to the point of death.  Maybe some can touch it and are able to run the other way but many out there are not able too. In that depth of darkness is where Christ sits. I know it’s crazy but man, He truly loves nothing more than to meet us where we are at. To sit with us where hell lives inside. It’s there that His ray of truth sets us free. It’s there where we meet light against the darkness. Those dark days made me stronger, or maybe that strength was always inside of me, I just needed to go through hell and back to realize it was there, that He was always there. 

It’s easy to see all the things we need to fix around us or inside of us, isn’t it?  It’s like when you clean the floor and after you are done all you can see is the one hairball from your dog you left in the corner, not the miles of clean floor you just did. We have all come so far in our journey and obviously, we are still going. Just remember that healing and growth in our lives can happen in the least expected place and sometimes in the darkness of them. Allow yourself to see the goodness and the healing that has already happened in your life. That crap we still need to fix ain’t going anywhere ha! But thankfully, neither is Jesus, so instead, stand tall on what you have accomplished, the little pieces that you’ve worked your butt of to move forward from, the constant war inside of you that you keep winning. Warrior status is in all of you, own it like a rockstar!  

“Sometimes you don’t realize your own strength until you come face to face with your greatest weakness.”