Isaiah 43:10 (CEB)
“Listen carefully, I am about to do a new thing, Now it will spring forth; Will you not be aware of it? I will even put a road in the wilderness, rivers in the desert.”
He’s doing something. Can you see it or are your eyes blinded by the juggling of life? Not that we aren’t all juggling some crazy stuff but in that, are we missing what He’s trying to do in our lives? He is creating masterpieces in you and I but sometimes we are looking on the back side of the canvas. We need to get out of the way and see the beautiful colors He is painting. We desperately want this amazing art work to come to life that we pray for yet sometimes it’s happening, just not exactly how we think. Our assumption then is he must be busy with someone else and I’ll just keep trucking along till he comes back around to me. Ummmm…..no, that’s not how he works.
I could not for the life of me understand what He was doing in the men department. First of all, I picked the cream of the crop, let me tell you. (insert eye roll) Unfortunately though, I had no respect for myself or my body and had no clue….NO CLUE what it meant to stand on my own two feet. What it meant to say ‘NO!’. Because of the abuse, I thought the only way to be loved or to feel love was to give them what they wanted and they used that so it’s definitely what I attracted. Not only could I not see the masterpiece Christ was trying to put together, I couldn’t see the masterpiece right in front of me in the mirror. I could not value or respect who I was because it was completely demolished at the age of 5. BUT, slowly I kept peeking around the front of the canvas, allowing the colors He was using to penetrate through the stale white from behind. He’s working, even through the midst of pain, or trouble, or questionable circumstances, He’s molding us. When I look back, I never ever would’ve met my husband if I hadn’t gone through the other abusive relationships first. AND I would’ve NEVER understood what real love was either. Each circumstance that happened with each relationship placed me a step closer to my husband. I kicked and screamed along the way at God like you wouldn’t believe. Pretty sure I punched a hole or two in the canvas too ha but hey, he still painted around the holes.
The trust thing can be real hard for many of us, I totally get it, but just don’t let go of Him. As crazy and mind blowing as it is, He has His hand on everyone’s paintbrush, all at the same time. It’s kind of why You don’t mess with Jesus, I mean…….He’s got skills. He’s got you, He’s doing something amazing. Don’t let go. Keep peeking around the canvas. He’s gonna surprise you.
“How cool is it that the same God who created mountains and oceans and galaxies looked at you and thought the world needed one of you too.”