Matthew 6:27 (CEB)
“Who among you by worrying can add a single moment to your life?”
Worry. Does that touch home for you? Does it sit heavy or are you someone who is able to be like, it’s all good. Things are gonna be fine. If so, can you please share your secret mojo with the rest of us cause that’s not me. I used to be WAY worse but between medication and a whole lotta prayer, I seem to be on my way to a semi worrier instead of full blown, straight up, she cra cra worrier.
Kids are beginning to start school again and so this topic totally hits home in our household. Pretty sure I handed down my anxiety and worry to all children, well maybe not the 9 year old who is still in his own world but definitely the other 3. We’ve literally walk the schools with their schedules about 1500 times to make sure they know exactly where they are going and what they need to carry and where their locker will be etc. This is even before the actual school walk through ha! See, totally handed it down. My kids will all need therapy which I’ve fully come to accept. I have 2 high school kids and for the first time I’m like, college is coming. No. You can’t leave me. No one can leave me. I’m cool enough for you to stay around. Especially my special needs boy. UGH! God’s gonna do big things with that kiddo and totally protect him but this momma’s heart might explode with worry about him being on his own. I’ve been by his side since he was diagnosed and watched him jump through fire to get to where he is today. Wowza, here I am crying already. Hot Mess people! But then I step back, breath, maybe take a sip of wine, and realize, what good does this do anyone or anything by me worrying. If anything, worrying just makes our insides suffer over and over again while the rest of the world just keeps on trucking along. It’s easy to get stuck in the cycle of worry and spin until we are at the depths of darkness. Believing nothing but the worst. We need to break away, take a deep breath, and realize where our truth lies. Christ knows every hair on your head, knows every hair on your kiddos head, and he knows our comings and goings before they even happen. If you think about it, we are worrying about things that have already been taken care of by our great big Father so what the heck are we doing besides getting ulcers and headaches.
I used to worry that I’d never survive. Honestly, that I’d never see all the way through til the end of my life. That I’d never see what life would have offered me because I’d never be able to get out of the darkness. But that worry itself was keeping me IN the darkness. Hello Heather! It took me a bit to realize that I was actually making it worse. Friend, you are an amazing person, mother, friend, co worker, father, teacher, lover, and warrior. He has created you perfect and wants to walk alongside you, holding your hand and telling you, I’ve got this, you just keep on walking.
“Worrying is like a rocking chair; it gives you something to do but never gets you anywhere.”