Psalm 16:5,6 (CEV)
“You, Lord, are all I want! You are my choice, and you keep me safe. You make my life pleasant, and my future is bright.”
So I have a new table in my family room. Don’t get too excited for me yet. My 9 year old decided he wanted to make a table, ya know, out of wood because I have no other tables here? (Bring in my pondering face) Funny thing is, he even measured a table that already exists that he could use but just didn’t suffice. I said, Cooper, let’s put it up in the playroom (so that mom’s ocd doesn’t kick into high gear). Nope, this bad boy needs to be seen by the world and with the rest of the furniture that he feels it belongs with. Alright, I take a deep breath and I’m like, how about for a few days and then we will find it the real home it deserves. That seemed to work until he decided he wants to stain it aqua blue and thinks it would fit perfectly. My heart is now palpating and the table will be re positioned in the middle of the night.
So for the past few years, I’ve really tried to walk away from the idea that my home needs to be perfect, that everything needs to have its place ALL the time. Friends, I used to be sooooo bad. Like, when my kids were young, I’d walk behind them while they were playing and immediately clean up as soon as they were done. Yea, issues, me, right there. Let’s just say, I have a control issue. As I step back from my table situation, I realized that because of my lovely issue, my response could be really hurting my kiddos’ heart. I mean, he wants to show off his hard work. AND THEN, I stepped back even further and was like, hmmmmm, that’s kind of what happens when I try to control my own shenanigans. I think things should look a certain way and turn out a certain way and…..well it goes on and on. When I do, I just end up hurting myself in the long run. Man, I’m doing a lot of hurt’n around here. Sometimes, ok maybe all the time, God’s like, girl, I know what I’m doing, just let go of the wheel a second and let me do my thang. Why do we think we always know better? We are up against The King of the Universe who is perfect! Like, seriously? When I look at it that way, I’m like, shoot, I’m sure you’ve got a WAY better plan then what I’m thinking. Let me just chill with my cup of coffee over here and allow you to ‘clean up’ where it’s needed. Control is a bugger. As we know, it’s really hard to understand sometimes what God is doing BUT when we look back at our lives, could you imagine where we would be if he DIDN’T take control? As difficult as it is for me, I’m gonna leave the table. At least long enough to make it painful for me when someone comes over! HAHAHA Honestly though, it will remind me to just release the feelings that don’t belong there. It will make me look at the situation differently. It will help me remember to release the control in many areas of my life.
Do you need my table for a reminder? No honestly, I’ll share ha! Let’s get real though, there’s a piece in your life that you need to give away. There’s a situation or decision or just life all together that you need to give over to our Big Guy. Do it, what’s it gonna hurt.
“These mountains that you are carrying, you were only supposed to climb.”