2 Timothy 1:7 (NLV)
“For God did not give us a spirit of fear. He gave us a spirit of power and of love and of good mind.”
I’ve always wanted to be a background singer. Crazy right? Everyone’s like, didn’t you want to try and become famous or something? Notice I used past tense, evidently I’m too old for a full blown Britney Spears moment! Ha. The answer to that question though is not really. I’ve sang/played all my life and don’t get me wrong, I LOVE being onstage. I mean, who doesn’t like it all about you? Kidding, not kidding! Ok, but seriously, I don’t think I ever saw it as a tool to go make it big. As we’ve disgusted in other devos, it was more of a healer to me. It’s almost like God gave it to me in order to survive the walk through the abuse alone, the depth of depression and cutting, any hardships that came around. It’s why I gravitated toward using it for Him. Why I decided to become a music director coming out of college. Well, after I worked at Ed Debevics in downtown Chicago. Yep, you heard me straight. Remember that place? Dancing on tables and being rude and stuff? Good Times!
Being in the background is safe. I think that’s what I came too. Stepping out and trying to push through people, attitudes, rejection, all of it made me want to crawl in a corner. Some people thrive off of and get revved up to go kick some serious butt and show peeps up when they are shot down. Nope, not me. I’m like, ok cool, no worries, I’m out. So then I stepped away and took this into every day life. Safe. We stay there a lot don’t we? I do. Stepping out of the box puts me into unknown territory which makes me shake. Not right though. It’s important to step out of ‘safe’ sometimes. Try new things, maybe look at something from a different angle. If we stay in the safe zone, we don’t get to experience change or growth. There could be something we are missing when we stay in our box. Meeting new people, getting a new job, starting a new relationship, healing an old one. If we stay in the safe zone, we will continue to ride the crazy train. Unless your safe zone has no issues which hey, fantastic! But even if you are living your best life ever there, don’t you ever wonder what you could experience it outside of it? Sometimes it’s a matter of just thinking differently on something. Sometimes it’s accepting someone that is completely different from you yet could teach you to look at life differently…….maybe better.
Jesus never played it safe. He hung out with hookers, walked where he wanted, preached where he wanted. Nothing stopped him because God had his back. He didn’t need to live in the safe zone when He was constantly looking up to know where to go. Shoot, if He can do it, we can do it!
“Step so far out of your comfort zone that you forget how to get back.”